Wednesday, June 9, 2010

This Weekend!

Both Chastity and I's mamas are here. It is going to be an eventful weekend:




Check out info on their High Noon Teeth CD Release this Saturday, June 12 @ The Cedar in the City Pages Feature or the Twin City's Daily Planet interview

...will post more on what I've been reading and working on after this weekend. Exciting garden pictures coming soon!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Just this.



At the seedstore we thought a pic was necessary as my fellow apartment mates and Chas and I might be starting a garden blog called "3518 Blooming." We planted our starter seedlings in the garden on Sunday and celebrated by drinking wine and sitting around the fire.



Chastity backstage at the Dakota Jazz Club right before she went on stage.



Chastity killing it at the packed Dakota.






An exhausted Mama after her retirement party!



South Dakota snapshot.


I've been listening to EmmyLou Harris' ablum, "The Wrecking Ball" and reading some Virgina Woolf - trying to get my lit on this Spring has proved challenging as I have been helping Chas with press kits and promo. All in all, this spring has been gorgeous. Biking my legs into knots, hitting up the farmer's market, making life decisions, putting down some seeds, and sitting in the sun...with nothing to do, but sit. And I love it.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Fever

I saw a black butterfly in the yard this morning. It's wingtips, burning into the spring air, fluttered something in my chest: the hooker in my dreams wasn't real...and she didn't mean to knock me out...a dream is a dream is a dream.

"Sat there down, once, a thing on Henry's heart so heavy, if he had a hundred years and more, and weeping, sleepless, in all them time Henry could not make good."
-from 77 Dream Songs, John Berryman

Days go by where my body is a liquid sack of relaxation. Days stick when my body is wound so tightly, so absolutely feverish that my mind becomes brittle, the smallest interaction blasts me to pieces. This much sadness turns in on itself. It punches in sleep. Blows out my front tooth- a hot look, I know.


Days when I am able to talk with and see those I love:




Tickle my bones.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Tennessee Come Down

Travelling rearranges my senses. Or was it the Norwegian shag I pretended not to smoke? The sunset started it. It lit me up, and before I knew it I was blowing smoke rings, secretly wishin they'd reach the people near me, lasso them in- close to me as I could get em.'

February has never been an easy month. I seem to run into this question: "what am I doing with my life?" The gray days. The snow that will never melt. My own meltdowns. I'm reading some Jeanette Winterson to get through the days.

While on vacation I finished reading Adrienne Rich's What is Found There.

"The moment a feeling enters the body is political. This touch is political."

She delves into many literary and political ideas, which I am thankful for because I now have a text to reference when I am struggling to grasp this arena. She articulates the ways in which sensual vitality is essential to the struggle for life and how that sensuality is inseparable from politics. The collection is mind-blowing.

Points that resonated with me the most:

*writers weave the fictions of many lives and they are truest when most imagined
*never stop responding to new passions and new forces- never oversimplify, as believers and activists are often tempted and pressured to do.
*casual storytelling, music making: people used their human equipment- memory, image making, narrative, voice, hand, eye- unself-consciously to engage with other people not as specialists or "artistes"
*communal art has never been co-optable for commercial ends
*nonassimilating in spirit and therefore living amid contradictions, a constant act of self-creation
*craft: control of tone and image allow the wild and desperate quality of experience to be heard
*the refusal to segregate art from daily life and work
*...might be pondered by all poets who too fluently find language for what they have not yet absorbed
*...a tough and searching empathy-observant and participant: totally unsentimental consciousness, rather a being who instinctively responds to growth, deprivation, persistence, wildness, tameness
*poems live amid complex tensions even when its texture may appear transparent
*to act on a criminalized sensuality demands many kinds of decriminalization- not only of sexual acts, but of poverty, skin, difference
*no sentimental haze- an energy that is restless and impatient of resolution
*the communication of poetry takes place beyond frameworks of explanation
*speak for continuum, spectrum, inclusion as laws of life
*in each case the poet refuses to let form become format, pushes at it, stretches the web, rejects imposed materials, claims a personal space and time & voice
*on avant garde/experimental poetics: what is significance in a society of immigrants and survivors of genocide, the meeting place of many colonized cultures, whose emerging artists, far from being disgusted with their people's traditions and styles, are trying to repossess and revalue them? -not abandoning meaning; the artistic imperative to make it as clear as possible
*the economy of the nation, the empire of business w/in the republic, both include in their basic premise the concept of perpetual warfare
*images that burn true outside of the emotional theme park/commoditized spirituality
*poetry, like bread, is for everyone

I agreed with her arguments for the most part, but was left with several questions and would love nothing more than to get into a conversation with someone about this book and the literary landscape now (and musical landscape for that matter).

Tonight we are having a fundraiser for Wild Mind Magazine at the MayDay Cafe. We have a lot of work to do: build the website, choose/solicit first issue content, figure out how to maintain literary and communal integrity when choosing what to include- how to provide essential information not available in the mainstream press?




Some Tennessee lovin for ya:



Saturday, January 16, 2010

Tree-Shattering, Shutter-Fluttering

Just finished reading: Carson McCuller's The Heart is a Lonely Hunter and Alex Lemon's memoir Happy. I was blown away by the queer and non-traditional relationships in The Heart is a Lonely Hunter. There is something to be said for how Singer, Mick, Blount, Biff, and Dr. Copeland were all heart-heavy in their desire for connection, either with another or in their dream-streaming inner desire to capture music, to move people to change their situations, to move towards justice, towards letting emotions lead the way even in their most timid and awkward states. As for Happy, damn. Damn. Damn. Damn. Read it.

Just starting Nurridin Farah's Links.
Eating: A blood-orange and cherries. It is a syrup fruit kind of afternoon.
Listening to: Lisa Hannigan, The Low Anthem, Sam Cooke

Weeping still because of Happy. This book made me look at myself in a way that I never had before. I remember hearing somewhere that an alcoholic/addict/self-destructive person is always strung this way, even when they are sober this inner screw of needing to feel, needing to create or feel all things in a room still grinds holes into their being. This quote got me: "I only know how to return all the love people give me with cruelty." I did have some criticism going on in my head as I was reading. For instance, he gets away with a lot of shenanigans and if he were from a lesser privileged community he would have been locked up in no time. In any case, every book, voice, piece of art functions as it is and will resonate, may even inspire some folks while at the same time putting off others. The risk of putting experience and creative works out there is where the beauty lies. I will probably re-read it as it is a quick one- still pulling out the dagger of last breath it left in my chest.

I got a new camera (digital SLR) for christmas and I think I am in love. I had an inkling that I am an image-oriented person (probably because my ears lack auditory acuity), but this new world of moment-capturing, movement-slowing art is all my fingertips can feel- they shutter-flutter even in my sleep.

It's official. Maggie, Mandi and Kara are starting an online literary journal- "The Wild Mind." What started out as a group of us meeting to free write (thanks to Natalie Goldberg) at Mayday each weekend has now turned into a full on project. Our mission statement is on our blog and we are working on an actual website so that we can have the first issue up by Spring/Summer!!!! Wholey F-Holes right!?

I have that tip of the tongue feeling going on except that it is the tip of my toes feeling...details are lodged in my un-flexed, ex-dancer foot. So much writing and music and art to explore that my body must MOVE.




Thinking about characters and how we describe relationships- streaming, turns of phrase, transition...and how, for me, dialogue holds characters.

I have been stretching and breathing a lot lately- trying to open open open and do different and new things each day rather than getting stuck into sterile habits.

I captured this with my old digital on my drive to South Dakota a couple of weeks ago when a tree-shattering frozen rain fog cloud-hazed the farmland outside Watertown:

Sunday, December 20, 2009

South Dakota bound

"In wildness is the preservation of the world."
-Thoreau